That’s right, I’m pregnant. Surprise! I’m due sometime around April 9th.
The pregnancy is to blame for the lack of posting lately. I haven’t been able to stay focused on any one task, and I’ve been quite nauseous. Why do they call it morning sickness? For me it is lasting all day and right into the evening. I’ve actually lost weight, rather than gained it.
You should see my food-blog-packed feed reader. It’s bursting with posts I’ve been too queasy to read. I have 5 food related blog posts of my own I want to finish and publish, but I can’t seem to stomach even opening the files to look at them.
In addition to the nausea, there is the exhaustion. I’m so tired! I’ve been sleeping 10 hours a night, and spending a lot of time collapsed on the couch.
Oh, right, there’s also the excitement. I’ve always wanted to be a mom, and with my 32nd birthday around the corner it’s about time, right? I wish they could tell me today whether it is going to be a boy or a girl. We’re hoping for a girl. I can’t wait for the day we find out.
My anxiety is in high gear. I’m stressed about our finances, and I’m searching for a new home. We’re currently residing in my parent’s home, and I don’t feel like staying here is going to work. The goal was to have all of our debt paid off before we moved, but we’re probably a year away from that goal. We were supposed to have a baby in 2 years, not now, for precisely that reason.
Not that I’m upset, I’m not. I’m overjoyed. I cannot wait to hold my baby, to be a mom, to teach him how to walk and talk, to dress her up, to decorate his room, to have a good relationship with the new life I’m bringing into this world.
We’re thinking of selling our business. It’s really nice to work for ourselves in a lot of respects. We set our own hours, we aren’t working for the profit of someone else, the money is great when we’re busy, we can say/do anything we’d like. However, there is no one matching our contributions to a 401k, when we’re slow we don’t make any money, there is no paid time off, no vacation or sick days, no pension when we retire, and no one to help us pay for healthcare. After years of weighing the benefits, we’ve decided that a job might be the way to go. See how I said “might” there? Yeah, I’m still undecided.
There is a lot up in the air right now, I’m not sure where it’s all going to land. What I do know is that for some reason this sounds absolutely delicious. I’m pretty sure that has something to do with the parasite in my womb.